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Tf nation? has anyone gone?/is going?

Journal Entry: Tue May 16, 2017, 7:47 AM


I got suggested to it by someone last night, and Idk, I'm maybe considering it?I'd like to hear more about it I guess?
I don't feel too confident, in fact, I'm feeling extremely shy about it.
So I dont know? I'd like to go, I'd even like to have a booth in the artist alley, but...idk...
I'm hesitant, I dont k now anything about tfnation, so I'm hoping someone here can fill me in? pretty please?

  • Listening to: Amar pelos dois
  • Watching: my cat jazz sleep
  • Eating: nomnoms
  • Drinking: probably stuff I shouldnt

Eurovision! HELL YEAH!

Journal Entry: Sun May 14, 2017, 3:33 PM


For anyone that wants to here Portugal's winning entry: 
Also to all the fucking haters about his interview and sore losers: 
GROW UP AND LEARN ANOTHER LANGUAGE!
Seriously? Do you know how hard it is to translate portuguese to english coherently? On the spot? Live?
Without much experience at doing just that?
Yeah well, he didnt either. if you hear what he says in portuguese it doesn't sound at all pretentious, and its kind and humble and innocent.
His song is all about love, and honestly? If you haters love steven universe, I dont know how you can not love this one, because the song is pretty much the same kind of shit and feeling , just with portuguese words.
ALSO WE HAD THE FUCKING GUTS TO SING IN OUR LANGUAGE FOR YEARS WHERE ALMOST EVERYONE ELSE IS MAKING CHEAP COPIES OF ENGLISH SONGS WITH LITTLE TO NO MEANING AND DEPEND TOO MUCH ON FLASHYNESS!

I'm ANTI PATRIOTIC. 
I don't believe in borders, I believe in the whole world as one.
So people making this hate shit gets me angry as hell.
It was a beautiful, unique yet daring song.
So I'm saying this not for as a patriot, but as someone that happens to know the language, and can apreciate everything fairly.

Also they won before this in other contests, not because of his illness, but because the song IS good.
liston to other countries musics and radios every once in a while and you can find out how beautiful some of those songs can be, or how fun or wtv.

Even if you don't understand the words, the feeling is all there, and thats the essence of music, thats what matters.

PEACE!


ps. calling him salvadorable is still creepy ppl...really he just looks super ordenary in portuguese standards, our country is full of hundreds of copies of that...

  • Listening to: Amar pelos dois
  • Watching: my cat jazz sleep
  • Eating: nomnoms
  • Drinking: probably stuff I shouldnt

What kind of youtube tf content do you want?

Journal Entry: Thu May 4, 2017, 5:35 PM


Hey guys, so as some of you might know, I recently did a video reviewing a tfa character, and that was somewhat fun, a bit amateurish, and I'm a bit timid, so its not its best, but I do want to push myself more.
I've been trying to learn more on how to make better videos, gathering ideas and thoughts.
But I was interested in knowing what kind of content would you guys want?
I mean other than character reviews, which I already have planned for anyway.
But I don't know? Talks? theorizations of something specific? reviews of larger scale? art features?
Or even non tf stuff like, reviewing something with an animator's perspective in mind. I don't know.
I'd like to know more about what you think you would find interesting.
be it an actual video or more like a podcast just talking around?
I'm trying really hard to get back into the community, and build it up again here in DA, since it has fallen from what it used to be, and it used to be great, I want that for the old and newer fans. I want it back, but I need help to do it.
So please, give me feedback! Help me make this dream come true.
If we all help a little, we can make great things. 
We're all cogs in a great mach-*shot*

  • Listening to: absolutly nothing
  • Watching: my cat jazz sleep
  • Eating: nomnoms
  • Drinking: probably stuff I shouldnt

Taking specific requests

Journal Entry: Mon Apr 17, 2017, 3:43 PM


I'm having a bit of a dry spell in ideas.
I wanna post more cannon art, but I have no ideas for more, so, I'm taking SPECIFIC requests.
cannons only, unless it includes an oc or another of mine.
give me ideas and I shall see if I make some

  • Listening to: Samurai jack ost

Patreon!Discord!Comics! and more!

Journal Entry: Fri Apr 7, 2017, 2:58 PM


Hey everyone! Sorry I've been a tiny bit inactive, as you might have read I've been dealing with viruses on my computer, and I THINK I finally might get a break from that.
anyway, I've been trying to set up a few things for the future, such as a patreon for my comics and other projects.
I've also been arranging for a better way to communicate everyone about news, updates, and etc.

So, I now have a discord channel just for the purpose of announcing livestreams, sharing art, building community and connect my patreon to it:
discord.gg/mw7n3Az

you can join there if you have discord, if you don't I really recommend it, its an easy way to communicate with people with the same interests, works on phones, you DON'T have to speak necessarily, and its all free. easy to install too.~


Onto other things!
I don't have it quite ready yet. But the patreon idea is in the works, and I was wondering if there were any rewards and the likes you guys would be interested in for it? I wanna make it worthwhile and interesting so yeah.

As for the comic:
its coming along, despite my recent struggles where I lost a page like five times now *grumbles something unpleasant that would make Ratchet blush*
I'm surprised a lot of you chose traditional comic over the motion comic, but thats okay with me, I just wanted a preference :) thank you all for you patience in voting. But your votes DO affect the comic and my choices in it, and they've been ever so helpful!


And finally the more: I've been working on making a youtube channel with, not just art videos, but also discussion and information sharing videos about several different shows, with my biggest focus being transformers since I've ammaunted considerable knowledge of it over the years now.
I'd like to know if people were intered in that.

Thank you again! I hope to see you when I see you!


PS. I also added a forum in my profile page where you can talk if you want >3> only if you want *scampers away*

  • Listening to: Samurai jack ost

Rescue mission reboot or/+ continuation?

Journal Entry: Thu Mar 9, 2017, 3:11 PM


Hey everyone, its been a while...yeah...I've been itching to do some comics, but I've been having trouble with the ones I have because they're all very finished and include a TON of background design which..haha...not gonna lie, not my cup of tea.
So I've been wondering and musing on some things, and looking back at my first comic "Rescue Mission".
Theres a few holes, blanks and things left unanswered, and I eventually figured why not work on that?
I can explain things better, fill in holes, patch mistakes etc.
But question is what would be most intersting to you all?
I realize most of my viewers dont even look at my stuff any more, much less my old readers.
But I feel like I need to go back to my roots.

So I want to know, as readers, what sounds more excitting? a reboot of rescue mission? Or a continuation of it?
I want to hear opinions, I want to hear wishes. 
What characters do you want? what do you want to see? what do you want to know?
Let me know please! I really need your guidance in order to bring you the best material possible!

Thank you for your time!!


To be clear: 
a reboot would be redoing the whole comic from scratch, better and awesomer!

the continuation alternative:
theres a small opening for a short comic ( maybe shorter than the current version of rescue mission) for some story which I can work on.

So yeah, finally opening one and putting some the stuff I've been making for the past years.
So here we go!
Don't forget to like and share!
www.etsy.com/pt/shop/DiamondCrusade

The shop can also be followed on:
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Facebook - Diamond Crusade
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Finally! This year I will finally remember to write a journal to answer everyone that gave me a happy birthday!
THANK YOU!
You  have no idea how December is harsh on me, it always gives me the worst waves of depression, sometimes even leading to suicidal thoughts. Its a really harsh month for me.
Its the reminder that another year passed by, and I haven't had any progress or sucess with my life, that I'm getting older, its a reminder that people don't really know me, and just how few friends I have.
and to top it off I'm always cursed with a horrible bad luck, so that doesn't really help.
So when strangers or aquaintances take a minute of their day to wish me a happy birth day, when my own family members don't even bother, its a relief.
I may not feel it at the time, which is why this journal always gets delayed or forgotten, but it does help, a lot. It makes a difference.
The past years themselves have been...harsh. Plain cruel in fact. My depression gets better and worse, depending on events, but I'm still fighting it, even if I have very little strengh left to do so and hardly any hope.

I realize I've mentioned it before, but I dont think I've quite ever explained myself (I don't have to but its nice).
So if you want, just skip this last part, but it might enlighten where I'm going with my art in 2017, and whats been going on with it for the past 7 years.


Sigh, ok, deep breaths and here I go.
I started drawing for real in 2007. Like actually work on it, before it was just passtime doodles, even though I grew up raised by two art teachers, it was just a hobby and something I loved doing.
Discovering that I could make projects, stories, movies, with my art, just strenghned my joy for it. it was like nothing I'd ever felt, I'd never been so happy over something, and in general I've never had much to be happy about in my life.
It became especially strong when I was introduced to transformers animated, and I can't recall a higher height of my joy for making art.
The peices were decent, but I was learning fast to improve and reaching my goal, I had tons of feedback, people actually liked my stuff and were responsive! It was amazing, I felt like I was part of something for once. and truly the transformers community at the time was wonderful.
Of course over time as I got better, the community got a bit more rotten, there were a lot of art thefts, and most of the other artists I socialized with diappeared because they either couldnt handle it, or life got the better of them. This made me sad, but I held on, stayed my ground and continued, even if my quantity of work was decreasing alarmingly.
I wasn't enjoying things as much, and people weren't responding as much either.
I know my art is still good, its better than ever, but that wasn't the issue.
Eventually I found myself accepted to one of the best animation schools in europe: The Animation workshop in Denmark.
And as my dear best friend told me the other day: its like a part of me died when I went there. The part that loved doing art.
and backtracking my steps I noticed, yes, I was getting into a funk, but I was still enjoying things, but Denmark did do something to me, it did break me, and I do feel like a part of me died there.
I had several really horrifying situations there: I had a person responsble for our year and guidding us, and she was terrible at it to be honest, but to top it off, she had a thing against me, against everyone that wasnt scandinavian really, even though she herself wasn't even one.
But it seems particularly me. Because I was accused of several things I didn't do, I was put at disadvantage, often not being told of due dates which was her responsability, missing exams because she didnt send emails on time, getting the wrong instructions for assignments and tests... you get the picture.

By the end of year two there, I was in a heavy depression, I was so stressed out, I was constantly getting sick, and worse of all, I was having black outs. Moments where I'd be in a hard conversation, and then my brain would go black, I knew I was still awake, I could feel my body, could struggle to move it, but nothing worked. and I knew I heard sounds but I couldn't register them.
This by far was terrifying. I started having panic attacks, anxiety attacks, heart burns all the time, trouble breathing...
and then, at the end, we have to get chosen to work on a certain movie for our third year, and my counceler, plus my headmaster wanted to force me to work on one of the projects, which was a pornographic movie, promoting rape (yes, get that through your heads).
I flat out told them no. I refused, I didn't want that on my portfolio, and it was not what I wanted to do for animation.
I have all the respect possible for someone who does pornographic animation, I dont care. I didn't want to be that person.
So, they began flunking me out of the blue, made me fail all the exams so I wouldn't pass the year, then came and told me the worst:  "You're just not good enough".
This hit me so hard, its now a trigger word for me, whenever I read it directed at me, or hear it, it strikes hard, and I can't even describe the pain it gives me, emotionally and physically. Its crippling to a level it sometimes makes me want to just kill myself and end it all, even if I don't believe suicide to be an answer, and wouldn't resort to it, it makes me think it, it makes me WANT it. And thats...thats just not right. No one deserves that feeling.

So, the result was me being put on "leave of absence" for...four years  now? I think.
I've been depressed this whole time, fighting to get better, fighting to make it all go away or at least to not bother me anymore, and its hard, its so hard, its like you're fighting a war with your own life, trying to breathe when it keeps pushing you under the water.
I constantly feel like I have a noose tightened around my neck, and at any moment the floor beneath me will give away, letting gravity do its work.
I've never stopped fighting, all this time I haven't.
But as seen in my gallery, I...I still can't feel joy for doing art anymore...
sometimes, if I'm REALLY lucky, I get a glimpse of it. but its so rare its almost like once a year...but it keeps me believing that I can get it back, its somewhere deep in there, I just have to keep looking and find it.
So for one more year, I ask for your patience, and your forgiveness if I am not the most active memeber, I do try.I think about it every day. And I want it, its everything that I want, I just want to enjoy doing art once more.

Thank you for staying with me this long. It has been an honor to have you accompany me in this journey, and I hope we can continue for many more years to come.
With that said,

Lyrica out.
Ok so I'm gonna start doing the streams of december with some hours, at 12:00 and at 19:30 every day.

sorry guys for missing some of the streams, I've been getting a little sick and stuff so yeah, but today! Today we're doing warframe, mission: war within!
So come up and join us on this epic quest of heartbreak.
www.twitch.tv/lyricabelachium
Hey guys, its been a while since I've streamed some stuff, so I'm gonna start one now with my buddy ann, we'll be doing some art. We intend to do a christmas advent thing where we do a stream each day of december, so come and join us! Dont be afraid to check in late, we might be here a lonnnggg whileeee!

heres the link for our multi stream: multistre.am/lyricabelachium/a…
dont be afraid to chat! :)
Just a few days left for me to go to america, and I find myself to be so nervous and anxious. The good kind mind you.
I've been working for this almost half my life, so its a really big moment for me, but at the same time, I have to let go of a lot of things.
This dream was never meant to be without a lot of sacrifices, and I knew that, yet I still committed.
The hardest for me is probably my pets:
I am leaving them behind with my parents, Jazz for the time being, my dog Matt, for ever.
Sadly Matt is too old, and too attatched to my mother by now, plus he has a weak heart now, so he really can't make a trip.
Its sad, because I know he doesn't have that much time left with us, so I don't know if these are the last days that I'll ever get to see him. I've raised him since a pup, and had tons of fun adventures with him. I'm just glad that so far I've managed to give him a happy fun life, for the most part free of pain and sadness, which considering my first dog got poisenous, and matt's mother died of leuchimia, is a vast achievement I think.
As for Jazz... well my baby is only 2 years old, and while he can make the trip, I am not taking him with me yet. I want to get my position in america stable first, make sure I can actually have him there under good conditions, it wouldn't be fair to take him to be in a cramped space and eating on strict rations just because I can't afford it (I dont think I'd have that hard a time but yeah). He WILL be coming to me in america eventually, but for now, he stays here in Portugal where is safe and has a good life, even if he is miserable if I'm just a few minutes out of his reach....
Anyway yeah, I've been boxing my things, packing, taking care of documentation, making sure I get all my comic plans packed and ready so I dont forget anything and I've gotten to a point where I get so nervous I SHUT DOWN.
Theres still so much to do, its overwhelming! I don't know where to turn anymore!
But I have to get it all done and thats the end of that!
We will see I guess? Oh also, extra good news:

I AM GETTING OFF THE DEPRESSION MEDICATION!HELL YEAH!

I asked my psychiatrist if I could reduce it, that I felt ready to, and he felt I was ready to get off it. So we're trying it.
I have to take a reduced medication for a month and then stop completly, of course if I start getting depressions again I'm to contact him and get back on medication! But I am hoping that that is not the case.

On an extra bit of news: I'll be working on a vlog of my journey to LA, I'm still not sure about the schedule, we'll see?
But I think it might be fun and interesting to document it all.
Thats all for now! See you soon!
Hey guys! Long time since I updated. 
So, I've been wanting to get out of my country ever since I was 14. I've been trying to since then.
And I'm glad to announce, that after a year working in a gift shop, I've gathered enough money to make my way out to America California!
I'm going with a tourist visa, but I fully intend to try and get a job while there so I can change it to a working visa.
I can't mess this one up, so this is it.
I'm getting out, and I'm staying out.
I'm finally going to pursue my dreams, be with my friends, live a little.
Thought I'd let you guys know, since I'll be packing and stuff soon, I go at the end of august.
wanna watch me do some art? or just have a chat? hop on by!
www.twitch.tv/lyricabelachium
Hey guys, I realized thanks to my friend kage angel that i havent done streams in foreverrrrrrrr
so, I am doing one now.
playing   Ark for a while, come chat and join me on this epic quest!
Feel free to join!
www.twitch.tv/lyricabelachium
Hey guys, because I refuse to let go of DA, but am too lazy to deal with Tumblr myself, (I am averse to the channge lol sue me) my buddy Windy Ren will be managing an account for me there.
I'll be reading all the messages and stuff of course, I just dont care for all the stupid submitting reblonging and blah parts.
So yeah, she'll be doing me that favor :3

If you happen to use tumblr more than DA like many ppl started to ages ago, here it is so you can follow me, if you use both, follow me anyway? : P show support, it feeds the artist.

www.tumblr.com/blog/lyricabela…
Hey guys, so I have an anime convention coming up in about 3 weeks.
and I'm doing clay charms for it, but I am running out of ideas of what to do.
so what would you guys like to find in an anime convention?
I can do rings, magnets, and charms for neckleses or bracelets
oh also earrings  : 3
Hey guys, out of curiosity, do we have any programmers or game devs here?
I'm only looking for free projects, no payments and stuff, for short little games.
IDK, I'm trying to find a team but its harder than it seems o.O
Hey guys! Sorry you got another journal so soon, I couldn't sleep, going through a lot of bullcrap right now.

So, I just got reminded I needed to share with you guys my facebook shop (temporary) where I'm selling my charms and stuff www.facebook.com/DiamondCrusad…

please let me know what you think, follow, like and share 83 help me get customers!
Hey everyone!
So, I decided to do comision specials this month (whats left of it anyway haha ).

So heres the prices for it:

a lined sketch is 5 Euros/dollars, plus 1 per extra character

a colored one (with shading ) is 10 euros/ dollars. the extra characters are 2 more.


NOTE: AS YOU KNOW I AM BEST AT TFA, SO PLEASE DONT ASK ME FOR BAYFORMERS XD YOU WILL REGRET IT.

also I am actually doing little charms and plushie commissions as well, so ask me about those if you're interested.
if you wish to see that stuff go to this video: 

MONEY ONLY, I USE PAYPAL, VISA, OR MASTERCARD.
  • Listening to: the land before time
  • Playing: warframe
  • Eating: cereal bar
  • Drinking: water
I havent done animation in forever, with my depression and everything I've been taking a breather from it. but today I felt like trying something really rough and basic, so I did this one:


Warning: cuteness overload. BEWARE
  • Listening to: the land before time
  • Playing: warframe
  • Eating: cereal bar
  • Drinking: water